Things I'm dealing with right now (yeah other people have bigger issues, but....)

-If she doesn't improve, we are probably putting Quinn down next week.  I know it's best and I know I'm more upset about how I'm feeling than how it will affect her, but it's still hard.

-Deciding about possible trip next week.

-Test in my class on monday that I am not really into.  I'm sure I'll do okay, but my mind has been otherwise occupied lately.

-Thinking about going for a new job... it's not what I want... it's in the same dept, but it would be more money.  So I would have more stress, still hate the job, but at least be earning more.

I'm not really happy with stuff right now.

A bit of a quandry...

Ok... I am trying to decide what to do... I'd really love to go to the UK next summer/fall.  An actor I really like is going to be playing Hamlet at the RSC, plus I've 'met' a lot of people online who live there and a forum I'm on for the show Torchwood is planning on maybe having a meet up thingy next summer in Cardiff.  I'd love to go back to London too... and see a real live Premiere League Match.

Before the whole puppy thing happened I had been thinking about looking into moving out, but I REALLY want to go back to the UK.  Can't do both at the same time.  Right now I'm leaning toward the trip.  SIgh... I don't know.  It's a long way away, but the tickets to Hamlet are already on sale and they will probably go fast... it's a limited season at it's .... well it's Hamlet done by the RSC in Stratford-On-Avon... need I say more.

I don't know.... maybe I'll just get a ticket for the play around the time I think I might want to go and think about the rest.  Then I'll only be out about $50-60 or so if things fall though. 

I got the puppy.  She is a Cattle Dog mix.  But I am wondering if I made the right decision.  I feel absolutely nothing for her.  I like it best when she is asleep or in her crate.  But I feel like if I change my mind about her like I would have failed.  I don't know if this is because I rushed into this particular dog, or that I am just feeling sorry for myself or because Quinn is still in the picture.  Logically, the puppy is fine... she is practically housebroken, etc. 

It has been two full days and I still feel like crying sometimes. (hell, I still actually cry)  I feel like I can't talk to anyone about how I really feel because I supposedly wanted this so much.  Now I'm not sure.  Maybe I'm not the animal person that I think I am. 

I honestly don't know what to do.  My mom said tonight that it's a good thing I haven't thought about having kids because I would have major post partum.  I probably would.  Maybe someday I'll adopt an older child. 

I just feel like crawling under the covers and coming out in a couple of months. 

Been a while... been busy. (plus this site is blocked at work)

Puppy-ness will probably be happening in the next 2-3 weeks.  I have a couple of prospects.  I was going to go for a Welsh Terrier or a Border Terrier, then I found out how much purebreds cost and well... I know there are expenses AFTER the puppy comes (spaying, puppy classes, etc) So..... I'm getting a mutt. I'm going to be taking a week or so off work to housebreak. 

Ok... pics are all sorted, but I have a nice souvinier cold so I haven't felt like sitting in front of the computer and working on the webpages.  So... here are a couple of photos of me with kangaroos and on the cliffs of Philip Island.