I got the puppy.  She is a Cattle Dog mix.  But I am wondering if I made the right decision.  I feel absolutely nothing for her.  I like it best when she is asleep or in her crate.  But I feel like if I change my mind about her like I would have failed.  I don't know if this is because I rushed into this particular dog, or that I am just feeling sorry for myself or because Quinn is still in the picture.  Logically, the puppy is fine... she is practically housebroken, etc. 

It has been two full days and I still feel like crying sometimes. (hell, I still actually cry)  I feel like I can't talk to anyone about how I really feel because I supposedly wanted this so much.  Now I'm not sure.  Maybe I'm not the animal person that I think I am. 

I honestly don't know what to do.  My mom said tonight that it's a good thing I haven't thought about having kids because I would have major post partum.  I probably would.  Maybe someday I'll adopt an older child. 

I just feel like crawling under the covers and coming out in a couple of months.